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| User: | ilak_mab (4567446)
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| Name: | ilak_mab |
| Birthdate: | 1982-09-11 |
| Bio: | I've decided that this section has been too boring for too long. You're never really gonna know me if I don't let you in, and I'm tired of being afraid of letting people in. So I'm opening the door. First things first...I am an amazing person. That statement doesn't come from a place of conceit, but from years of deep thought and quite a bit of therapy, from friends and from actual professional sources. I have made it out of so much horrible shit and not only survived, but made an entirely new life for myself. I am not as ordinary as I've always believed, and I've finally realized that it's time to give myself credit for things that I thought were unimportant before. Most people who've had a childhood like mine grow up to be alcoholics, or addicted to drugs, or wife-beaters, or murderers, or rapists, and on and on. These are people who suffer their entire lives because of the actions of people who were "supposed" to love them and "required" to care about them. The difference between those people and myself is that those people let their past experiences define their present, and their future. I've never believed in doing things like that, and that's why I've made it as far as I have in life. That's why I'll continue to make it in life. I don't believe in negativity. Now, that doesn't mean that I don't get negative. I do. I'm human. But I don't believe in letting it overrun my life and I don't believe in allowing it to stop me from reaching my dreams. I believe that anybody can get through anything if they have the will to do so, and if they allow themselves to feel EVERYTHING, not just the things they want to feel. This will probably make me a great psychologist someday. My biggest accomplishment has been realizing that I have the ability to make magic happen. That sounds incredibly stupid, I know, but it's true. I'm no longer a frightened little boy, insecure, always being made fun of, questioning every single step that I take. I have grown into a man who is sure of himself (even if it's not all the time); someone who, as one of my best friends says, can "settle my ass anywhere and be fine," someone who is capable of love and is willing to work for it (provided it's with someone who deserves me). If all of that isn't magic, then I don't know what is. I'm done feeling bad about myself, I'm done feeling like my feelings don't matter and my opinions don't count, and I'm done thinking that people don't want me around. That is not who I am anymore. Who I am is a confident, loving, caring, honest, compassionate, hilarious, intelligent, successful, helpful, amazing man. A man who has control over his own destiny. A man who walks his own path. A man who knows that he doesn't know everything but he doesn't know nothing either. I learn more about myself every single day, and each new thing is more surprising than the last. There...now that's MUCH better than what I had up here before, isn't it? :) |
| Pictures: | over 10 public |
| Interests: | 11: america's next top model, american idol, conversation, friends, guys, meteorology, music, non-fake people., project runway, the golden girls, writing |
| Schools: | None listed |
| Friends: |  | 10: | craftkate, elysesewell, grahftheruler, guest1022, henchling, jnd90745, katzinoire, thirdsouthobbi, wizbiz911, zam521 |  | 10: | antm_forever, conn_glbt, gay_sex_tips, gay_xxx, gayrotica, goldengirls, howembarrassing, sneakers_only, the_bathhouse, topmodel |
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| Friend of: | 39: angels_eyes, anthonycovino, arlando00, asyoudriftaway, craftkate, curious_body, dakotadave, darkladycher_9, duhface, eroticfox, evil_admiral, freefredthecow, grahftheruler, guest1022, henchling, im_justaguy, indieriot, j3, jnd90745, joeleppert, katzinoire, ldifazzio, madkevinp, needmydad, ogredrew, pegasus_99, photo29033, quite_qwerty, ryan27, saucyfaggot, skylermarie, suzieboz, sylvan, tgrlady, thewyldunknown, thirdsouthobbi, tightbehind, wizbiz911, zam521 |
| Member of: | 29: 4social_anxiety, alittleawkward, antm_forever, bad_sex, bitchwithme, brotherfuckers, club_meds, conn_glbt, customers_rock, customerssuck, dyedhair, gay_monogamy, gay_oddities, gay_sex_tips, gay_xxx, gayromantics, gayrotica, gaywriters, goldengirls, howembarrassing, lettergraveyard, paxil, projectrunway, queer, sneakers_only, storm_fanatics, the_bathhouse, the_gloryhole, topmodel |
| Account type: | Plus Account |
